|Friday, October 14th, 2005|
Upon graduating From NYU in 2008 Laine continued in working with her fathers production office moving up in the ranks from Intern until after approximatley 4 years starting to produce shows herself garnering some accalim as a producer in her own right instead of just her fathers daughter.
Juliet was vastly growing up as all this happened growing into a curious toddler and then young child who looked more and more like her mother all the time.
Laine reconenctd with a childhood friend Scott about halfway through her Junior year . They became friends quickly and his affection for Juliet grew with every passing moment. In Scott Laine found a sweet caring considerate and stable man who loved her and her daughter with all his heart. the two were married a year after graduation and 2 years later welcomed a younger brother for Juliet into the world. Current Mood: calm
|Wednesday, August 3rd, 2005|
After a sumemr of it just being me and Juliet...with occasional visits to my Mom. and that week i spent in Stoneybrook.
School starts soon and...wow That's going to be different.
I mean Daycare for Juliet? This summer really My mom watched her when I couldn't. and now a complete stranger?
Heck how am I going to deal with not being around her all the time?
And Shiela will be moving back in soon .It will be nice to have her around again.
Stacey and I've hung out a few times this summer which was great I have missed my best friend.
As for Sam... I'm..getting over it. I do miss him at times and I have to admit I had had plans for him to get to know Juliet fairly well.
I'll survive though.
And she's awake so off I go. Current Mood: amused
|Tuesday, July 12th, 2005|
So it's been awhile....
but..things are going alright. I spent a few weeks in Stoneybrook with Shiela, Got to see Stace..and we had fun...
Juliet is..growing every day! she's absolutley adorable and really really time consuming of course..
I'm glad things are back on track with Stacey , I'm glad Sheila's doing well and I'm glad...that I'm doing alright.
Back in the city though and..I've got an internship with Dad's Production company...seeing as I really do think That's what I want to do.I've grown up with it and I love it.
That's really all that's new here...
Still miss Sam immensley but..it' s for the best Current Mood: amused
|Wednesday, April 20th, 2005|
WoW I haven't updated this in a while...
Honestly I just don't have the time for it...
Being a mom is..well it's different. I Love Juliet I do. She's adorable and sweet.
Just time consuming and sleep depriving and..As much as Sheila tries to help. I have to admit it is hard to do this alone and I find myself getting so sad at times. and Lonley.
I miss Stacey and I miss Sam I wish I could have both. It was my decision to Let Sam go.
I didnt' feel right being with him while stacey was so upset.
I miss him though so much. having him hold me..
I'd love to see him hold Juliet he was so sweet about the baby stuff.
It was the right decision though now if i just knew how to reach out to stacey.
|Wednesday, March 23rd, 2005|
|I can't believe...
Sheila thre me the best Baby shower..
Stacey dropped by some gifts but didn't stay..how can I do this to her? How can I be falling in love with her Ex the only guy she's loved and she still buy presents for my baby???
Maybe it's hormones..I'm due in a week...I know I'm possibly over-reacting but..I can't do it..I called Sam...
I can't do that to Stacey..I can't see him anymore...
From her journal entries she's not doing so well either....
I wish I had my best friend right now but..I alienated her......
I can't believe I did that...
My heart I physcially hurt...But hse's more important than him...she has to be.. Current Mood: stressed
|Tuesday, March 8th, 2005|
It hit me today
I'm due in like 3 weeks..
Me a mom..
My life will change even more..someone who will depend on me..
How can I take care of someone when I amde such a mess of my own life..My best friend hates me.
My Kids dad doesn't want anything to do with me..
All I've got is Sam who's always there for me..
and if Stacey's journal entries are any indication to her life..she's still hurting and I can't do that.
If I thought it would help I'd let go of him to help her
But I can't I need him too much..
I've never felt like this before I've never depended on someone like I do him
It would physically hurt to let him go..
Such a mess Current Mood: cranky
|Wednesday, February 23rd, 2005|
|An interesting evening.
I jsut got home from another of Dad's show opening. Thank God this one was Chad free.
Sam of course accompanied me.
The show was fantastic. Im even growing to Like Dad's Girlfriend Sherry.
Sam was..awesome. we went to dinenr at "Tavern on teh green" it was a great date.
Last night was better though. See I couldn't sleep so I got online and He was on. so we talked I was telling him that Juliet was pretty active .That's why I couldn't sleep.
We talked about how he seems to have a calming influence on her. she kicks less when he's around.
He came over.
Yea. So sweet. I slept last night curled up in Sam's arms.
I've never done that before just Cuddled with a guy all night.
What have I done to deserve a guy like him?
I really think I may Love him
Stacey does too though. How could I have fallen for The only guy my best friend has ever loved? She's more important then a guy and if she told me to break up with him I would. She Hasn't said that though ..I know I'm a horrible person But I'm not sure I could let him go if she did...
A great past couple on nights.
Yet still I worry about Stacey...
|Saturday, February 19th, 2005|
I've been thinking about a few things latley.
Now that Stacey knows....It sucks. I hate to hurt her but I truly like Sam. he cares for me , he cares for my baby. (whom I've decided on a name for that NO one will make me change...Sam should even approve..I'm not disclosing that info yet though.)
I'm due in just over a month.. I'm going to be a Mom. A single mom which I NEVER thought would happen.
I had a dream last night. A nice one I think. a simple one. Sam and I were together (dating, married I don't know we were living together at least) and we were raising My daughter.
It made me think. See when we go places together People assume he's the Dad. Not suprising BUT
I can't ask him to be that. He's trying to get a career going. I know he cares about me But I'm not sure how much. Do I want to ask that of him?
that's the real question I guess. do I want him to be a father figure to my child?
The answer is I don't know.
I just Don't know. I know I care for him a lot and, I know he makes me laugh and he listens when I cry. I know I can't wait to see what will happen between us when I'm not pregnant.
I'm confused though so confused. It's asking too much of him I think...But in that dream...it seemed right...
Can I even keep seeing him?
what with Stacey and all...
-Laine Current Mood: confused
|Monday, February 14th, 2005|
So I've been thinking of names again for the baby. I swear Sma's dislike for the name Riley has NOTHING to do with this...
Okay I'm Lying it got me thinking....
maybe Juliet??? Hmmm I think I'll take a vote...
|Sunday, February 13th, 2005|
That's all I can say to describe my day. WoW.
I had classes today and no plans for the evening. I was so surprised when I get home and Sam shows up just shows up! with A rose in hand saying he's going to take me on a "Night to remember"
I of course immediately wanted to change but he told me what I had on would be fine. so I fixed up a bit and we were off.
I was way curious though. EVERY other guy I've dated has made a huge deal of Valentine's day , we're talking candlelight and many Roses. dressed up and romance. Sam shows up in Jeans and a sweater with a single rose and tells me my school clothes are fine?
He took me to a diner..well more of an arcade?
It was so great though we had burgers we talked , we laughed I love that I can talk to him about theater which I love, and everything else.
He taught me to play a few video games. I suck at them, but watching him was great. He get's this little boy grin that's so adorable...
An inetersting point of the night. The guy at the counter who was like my dad's age and old and balding , when we went to pay he was all "Aww you guy's are so cute . When are you due?"
I was all "The end of next month" I'm getting fairly used to this conversation lately. Here was the surprising part. though the guy said "Do you know what it is?"
"Oh A daughter ! I've got three of my own" then he turns to Sam and he's like "A daughter who'll look just like you're pretty girl here. Are you excited about being a Daddy?"
Sam Blushed. I was curious as to what he'd say. He finally spoke up with a grin "I'm very excited to see if she'll be as adorable as her mommy" He put his arm around me and kissed my cheek. I couldn't believe he said that! it barley phased him, (or so it seemed) To have that guy think he's Riley's dad?
After that I just couldn't stop grinning. Here I was with a guy who was just REAL. he cares for me and doesn't hesiatate to show it, and he also doesn't put on any kind of act.
Before we left he won me a teddy bear from one of those Crane machine things. It's adorable . It's holding a heart pillow that says "Happy Valentine's day"
We went home He gave me a kiss...an Awesome! Fantastic , Glorious Kiss..
then pulled out a minature rose from his pocket and with that grin hands it to me and says "For Riley she deserves soemthing tonight too"
What can I say I kissed him again.. a few times..
He left and I'm here , I can't stop GRINNING!!!!
I'm falling hard...
it was the best night of my life.
Sheila just walked in to say goodnight. She say's I'm glowing! Current Mood: ecstatic
Sam told me he told Stacey finally. Not that she's said anything to me. not that I blame her. isn't there some unwritten rule about your best friends ex?? ack! I checked her online journal though. Umm i don't think she's taking it well....crap what have I done? can I do this to her? Should I call her and talk to her? I just wish I could explain..
|Wednesday, February 9th, 2005|
Not a whole lot going on latley really...I spend time with Shiela , and consequently Pete. Do my schoolwork , go to classes. Talk to Sam.
yea it's all a little boring latley. boring is good though , boring means less drama. And I know drama will ensue the next time I talk to Stacey. for all I know she's talked to Sam and hates me...ugh
okay yea Dramatic much Laine?
Chad called the other day I guess that's news although he ceases to bother me anymore , he didn't have much to say just wanted to know how I was doing. I told him he was going to have daughter. his response? "I"M not having anything YOU are . I told you I'd help Moneywise if you need it but I don't want anything to do with a baby it was a mistake Laine"
That's all I Have to say JERk and like I'd want his money anyway? I have enough of my own thank you very much!That is one thing I will NEVER have to worry about..
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LOl Hmm interesting is it true? Current Mood: bored
|Wednesday, February 2nd, 2005|
I've bene really uncomfortable the past couple of days, according to my Mom and Dr. That's not going to go away but I will get used to it more.
Yea that's something to look forward too.
Sam still hasn't gotten a chance to talk to Stacey...she has no clue what he's going to tell her I feel so horrible about that..
I've had a great couple of days though too. Sam suprised me with a visit the other day. I honestly think I could be falling hard for him...it's different then it was With Chad . with Him we had hte same group of friends but were never really friends then we ended up with each other , honestly it was a pretty physical thing only. Wiht Sam..we started out as close friends and it grew into something else...
What else I'm not sure but he made me dinner the other night...
He cares so much for me and for ...I think I've decided on a name. I was looking at name lists and hte mroe popular name for girls latley apparently Riley is one..I like that It's different Riley Elizabeth Cummings...
Wow talk about a cool feeling...I can say that Sam is so sweet and he cares so much for me and for Riley.
Ugh I've got class in a few and sme reading still to do..
-Laine Current Mood: cranky
|Friday, January 28th, 2005|
So I'm having a girl! exciting!! A daughter. a little girl like me...well i hope she's not like me!
In other news I haven't heard from Stacey in forever...Neither has Sam he hasn't gotten a chance tot alk to her....I feel guilty and I feel like...well I feel like I'm not going to feel right about this until he talks to her..until I talk to her.
I see him all the time and I love spending time with him to be perfectly honest I cna't wait until this pregnancy is over..having this stomach (which seems to get larger everyday!) kind of gets in the way.
I know it's a life inside me and it's an awesome feeling. especially when she moves or kicks.
wow I don't think I'm even making any sense..ugh off to try and do somr homework and then talk to Shiela for a bit..I hope thigns start going better for her in this tiral because right now she's really hurting...
|Saturday, January 22nd, 2005|
|An interesting night....
So the Opening of Dad's show went well. Sam looked awesome and I looked pretty good too if I do say so myself. And I do!
I'm still feeling pretty good about my appearance.Onviously
The show was great. Dad and Sam really got along well. they talked play stuff I think Dad really likes him.
THe one bad part of the evening was that seeing Chad. I hoped we really wouldn't talk to him but Chad had a bit to drink and approached us...
I think he was jelous in fact I know he was because he wasn't nice to Sam at all. I was trying to make small talk then escape the situation But Chad was making snide remarks all over the place. Since Sam went with me when I told him about the baby He was asking Sam how he felt about being a "replacment"
All I have to say is that Sam is an awesome guy and I'm glad he's in my life....
He's also an AWESOME kisser but that's another story entirley...
well I'm off to get some sleep it's going to be a busy day of homework tomorrow.
-Laine Current Mood: silly
|Monday, January 17th, 2005|
So the unbelievable happened when I looked in the mirror today..
I didn't see myself as FAT.
I Know I know I'm pregnant I never should have seen myself that way anyway. But I did. I've always been VERY image concious. So to even have a slight tummy was driving me crazy..not to mention the fact that I've been getting bigger EVERY day it seems...it could jsut be me...anhow on with my story. So I got up this morning and got dressed. I hadn't mentioned before that i had finally taken to maternity clothes. I actually found some very chic stuff on a shopping trip with Mom after Christmas. And I lucked out and the Baby hadn't really started showing tilla fter New years. But I was at that stage that I thought I looked horrible. Today as I was lookign in the mirror I realized I didn't look horrible. i look definatley pregnant but that's it. ANd I got this wierd feeling It's hard to explain but I finally see that I'm carrying a Baby Inside me!!!
I know I know DUH I've been carrying a baby since July....didn't really admit to it until October and I'm due at the end of March...
Took me long enough..I'm happy about it though...happy about alot of things I guess...I'm happy with the new semseter starting for school. Having my own place is awesome and Sam is a treasure right now...
I've got true friends for probably the first time in my life...things are definatley looking up!
-Laine Current Mood: optimistic
|Sunday, January 16th, 2005|
So Sam and I had a talk. the outcome was good. I think....I Need to talk to Stacey before I say anything else though...Suffice it to say I'm happy I think.....we'll see..
|Wednesday, January 12th, 2005|
Less than a week until classes begin adn I'm finally moved in
I LOVE having my own place!
I'm getting bigger everyday it seems..how unattractive i feel...
As for what happened with Sam.... I'm starting to feel guilty..and confused we havne't talked yet..we will when we get a chance. I'm not sure what to say though. not sure what I want..not sure of how this will affect Stacey. We're just starting to be friends again. she mentioned in one of her journal entries about if she had had a car last semester then maybe she could have saved her relationship..does shestill want him? is he still in love with her? oh the angst of it all!
where do I come in in all of this? Friends are more important than Guys..but I have to completley honest What I MAY feel for Him is more than what I've felt for anyone else..I thought I loved Chad...This is ifferent though we were friends first..friends always probably..ugh CONFUSION!!!
Current Mood: confused
|Sunday, January 2nd, 2005|
Okay what happened?
How did that happen?
With hIm??? I never thought.....He's such a good friend...he's gorgeous too..
New Years was a balst..new years eve at least Stacey and I had a great time. I needed to blos off steam liek that and spendign time with Stace was awesome..
New Years day i invited him over to help pack and keep me company...we kissed..we kissed alot..we....
Oh what am I thinking i eman Stacey was in LUV with him forever.
He's an awesome Kisser .. Best I've ever had...
what am I going to do could i possible have feelings for him Hell I know I do but could he have feelings for me...he sure acted like he did last night.
|Tuesday, December 28th, 2004|
So as the year is wrapping up I've thought of a few things..My Christmas was good , i got things i wanted and needed and spent it between both "families" just fine. I'm getting used to dad and H- she has a name i should use it more often , Sherry. yea poor woman she's named after a drink (teehee) sorry . ANYWAYS Mom's dating wells eh had A date. i'm glad she's out and about though i kepe trying to convince her a trip to stoneybrook and tiem with Mrs Mcgill could be good for her they were best Friends
speaking of...Shiela and I are moving into our place after the new yearI can't wait it will be an adventure! (is she my best friend? i don't know for sure but she's the best I have around here!)
Stacey and I have NYC Ney years plans which should be fun i need to e-mail her about that.
I guess that's all that's going on.